Saturday, December 18, 2010

She is Pregnant! At Last!

Okay, i am not actually alone in this infertility battle.

One of my officemates before got married a couple of weeks before I got married and we both battled with infertility after our respective marriages. The OB-Gyne said she has septate uterus.

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She is five years older than me, thus she is more ‘obsessed’ into pregnancy testing and she’s even thinking of getting that operation to finally become pregnant.

This year, we’re into our fourth year of battling infertility and early July, she actually had a miscarriage. Although she cried over it, she is just consoled when the doctor said there could have been abnormalities if the baby did survived.

So she moved on.

. . . and part of her moving on, she called me twice, thrice a week to just share about our infertility battles and hopes.

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This morning, i was pleasantly surprised when she told me she got a big fat positive on her pregnancy test and she was four days delayed. I could not describe what i am feeling. It was as if I am also pregnant! We almost screamed together on the phone!

She was 37 and this would be her first pregnancy. I was ecstatic and she said i still have a lot of chances to have my first pregnancy as well. I was happy also because of the thought that i do still have hope. My tests said I am fine and DH’s sperm count can be remedied, so there is indeed a good chance that hubby and I can have a baby.

. . . and this good friend of mine is just giving me a lot of hope and inspiration to also battle infertility with a good heart, with lots of patience and with lots of prayers to God above.

Thanks Jusan!

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(Hoping Santa’s listening . . .)


XOXO

Monday, November 22, 2010

Healthy Fruit Shake

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One of the things that DH and I agreed together when it comes to diet is adding more veggies and fruits to our daily menu. But of course, most of the time we ended up having veggies and fruits once a week, and sometimes we can go on for weeks without them.

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The healthy fruit shake was his officemate’s suggestion.

Originally, it should have been made from carrots, mango and lots of Malunggay (Moringa oleifera) leaves, which is known to be a fertility plant as it is rich in Zinc. The first time we had it, the odor of the leaves was just all over the drink and it was not appealing.

So we made our own fruit mix. We have:

  1 medium sized apple
1 medium sized carrots
2 pcs ripe mangoes
5-6 pcs of lettuce leaves
about 4-5 small slices of watermelon
1 medium sized Yacon
condensed milk
peanuts

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so we slice each of the fruits into small pieces before putting them all in the blender together with some milk and crushed ice. . .

 

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. . . and hurrah!, we already have our healthy fruit shake for dinner. DH is on a diet and has been taking only this fruit shake for dinner, three times a week. As for me, i usually drink this after a very light dinner. This healthy fruit shake helps a lot in getting rid of constipation as well.

Try it!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Implantation Bleeding and the Fuss About It

 

Implantation bleeding happens when the embryo implants in the uterine wall and indeed, it can be one of the very early signs of pregnancy. However, contrary to its name, implantation bleeding can usually be spotting as it is very minimal in most cases.

 

The ‘spotting’ as I would call it, happens usually around 6 to 12 days after ovulation and can happen around your next menstruation schedule, that is why a lot of women are confused whether it is implantation bleeding or the start of the period.

 

Usually, implantation bleeding can occur in two to three days but some women experience it longer than that. Of course, it can vary from women to women.

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In my case, i had what i thought then as implantation bleeding 18days after the first day of my menstruation. Of course, any woman would be interested to know and most probably confused of such. Menstrual cycles are often 28 days in length. yes, it can vary, but as early as 18 days is something that is indeed unnatural.

 

The next day, it was there again. Until the third day. Then it stopped. I started to think that there is indeed something going on inside me. I was a little positive about implantation bleeding or spotting, as it was almost exactly what implantation bleeding is all about.

 

On the fifth day, it came back again. I was a little tensed. I have read somewhere that pregnancy tests during the time of implantation bleeding may give you a negative result as there is not yet enough hormones for detection in your urine. So i tried to be patient this time.

 

After a couple of days, i thought i just had my period at 25 days. After I took fertility pills prescribed to me by my OB, my menstrual cycle got stable at 29 days exact and it is the first time that it started early at 25 days, or should i say 18 days.

 

So, okay, another disappointment. If i haven’t gone to the OB for all these fertility tests, i would not be too paranoid of all these, but of course, nothing can make my mind at peace than knowing what seems to be the problem with these infertility battle.

 

Another waiting then, i suppose.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Implantation Bleeding for 5 Days?

 

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Ok, so the spotting has stopped. I suppose this is not the first days of menstruation. of course, it is commonsense that when the spotting becomes heavier – that would mean of course, the onset of menstruation and not implantation bleeding.

 

In this case, it has stopped after 5 days. It did not even get heavier. Just slight spotting that do not even last for the entire day.

 

Whatever this is, i feel hopeful that it has something to do with implantation bleeding. I don’t want to do the pregnancy test just yet, so i have to wait 5 more days.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Is this really Implantation Bleeding?


I still had the spotting and I have checked online if implantation bleeding can last for more than a couple of days and i found out that some implantation bleeding can last up to a week.

Implantation bleeding is actually caused by the implantation of the fertilized egg in the lining of the uterus, which can cause a little shedding of the uterine lining for some women. Although not all women experience this, one out of three do experience the spotting.

I am hopeful that this is really it, but of course, the excitement is not yet at its full level. Although there is a feeling of having some light-at-the-end-of-a-tunnel thing, i still have to wait for the big fat positive (BFP).

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Implantation Bleeding?

Eighteen (18) days after menstruation.. .

I can’t believe what i saw. When I went to the bathroom today, i saw something brownish red and i could not believe my eyes. It was still 18 days past my last menstruation and it seems i am now starting again a new cycle.

but all i have are mere traces. nothing more like a menstrual flow. the thought of implantation bleeding suddenly came to me. I googled the term and it seems too likely. Of course, i don’t know what to expect or feel. I think it’s too early for a pregnancy test. For sure, there is not yet enough hormones that can be detected at this stage.

well, i still have enough patience for the pregnancy test. tomorrow, we will be going to the touristy island of Bohol for some high school classmates reunion and that would probably occupy my mind for a few days before i can do the pregnancy test.

My Life with the Little Ones

 

Even though I have been wanting to have a baby for more than four years already, the feeling of having kids around is never foreign to me.

 

When I was 18 and in school, I use to baby sit a young kid in the neighborhood.

 

Fresh from college, I got a work on the city and rented an apartment where my landlady has 2 small grandkids who eventually are my frequent room visitors. They would knock on my room and would tell me they just want to hang out in there. I painted them t-shirts with my fabric paint, and they seemed amused they kept looking for me everyday when they get home from school.

 

Now I am married and got a new place in a new city. Hopefully, this will be the place where I will permanently settle.

 

. . . and there are kids in the neighborhood, right next from the subdivision where I live. These kids are from poor families. They even skipped lunch because there is just nothing to eat.

 

They talked about their lives. Innocent children who just love to tell me tales about their families, ask questions, show me their dance moves and sing along with Justin Beiber on Youtube.

 

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one of the drawing sessions with the kids

 

So they are my companions at home when i feel too lazy to work. They even run little errands for me, and they even helped out when they see me cleaning the yard or doing something outside.

 

So when i remembered these three huge sets of colored pencils i use to keep in the storage boxes, I brought them out, give them clean sheets of paper and bought them coloring books and let them practice their writing and drawing. At times, i would play the guitar or the piano and we would sing all together.

 

well, i think i need to have half a dozen of biological children so i can have this fun drawing sessions. nahh.

Friday, October 22, 2010

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xoxo

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Semen Analysis: To Go or Not to Go

 

October is suppose to be the schedule for hubby’s follow-up semen analysis after 3-months of taking vitamins that my Ob has recommended. his urologist did prescribed him another vitamins but he ended up not liking it.

 

Anyway, i asked him about the semen analysis that he’d suppose to do but he just simply nodded, seemed uninterested. I know it might have been discouraging for him to know about the semen analysis results three months ago, and he probably does not want to feel that again.

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so i did not bug him. anyway, if the semen analysis would give good results, we would eventually find out. if the vitamins was not effective, he would not probably go through the ultrasound that the urologist recommend him too. i just don’t know.

 

we’ve talked about this issue and he seems positive about it though. he just probably don’t want to go through those stressful fertility procedures.

 

 

 

XOXO

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Am I Ovulating?



I think I just had ovulated today because of the egg white consistency of the cervical mucus. I don’t know. Sometimes i don’t want to think about it. But of course, I have to do my share as well.

Got to do my duties then!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

My Husband is an Addict

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Several times, i caught him smiling alone and talking to him is impossible. You can’t talk to him as he will only answer you something way too far from what you would normally get.

 

At times, he would laugh alone, at times he is unusually too quiet that he seems shutting the entire world out and drown himself with his own thoughts.

 

At times, he would be jittery. His fingers pounding noisily on something.

 

He hates darkness.

 

The last time we had a power outage until the early evening, he’d become uneasy and he’d start thinking aloud about when the power be restored. As darkness starts to fall, he’d start walking to and fro, turning the switch on and off hoping to see the lights go on.

 

He probably does not want to go to bed in darkness . . . or he probably does not want to go to bed without the air-conditioning on. I never asked him. I would probably get another string of answers that need more deciphering.

 

Sometimes he hates noise.

 

He’d put on the headphones for hours hoping not to hear anything around him. He won’t even use the earphones and insisted on having that big headphones on his ears to make sure he does not hear a sound from around him.

 

Indeed, his ways have become disturbing. At times he just stares blankly on something and it could go like this for hours.  I sometimes find him stooping on his desk in the middle of the night without moving.

 

I don’t know what he is up to.

 

i don’t know what he is thinking either.

 

I wonder if there is a cure for Facebook addiction. Indeed, my husband is a Facebook addict, and  I don’t know how many husbands are addicted to this social networking stuff.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Why Am I Even Here?

 

So upset tonight. My day started quite well but it ended bad. Not really bad, but it left me feel bad.

 

Sometimes there are things that other people mindlessly say that can really hurt – especially those that come from the mouth of someone we thought would not say such things to us.

 

I was really hurt. If  I haven’t have enough control of myself, i could have gotten angry. but i chose to be calm. and hurt.

 

In my mind i have asked, “Why am i here?" “ Why did i even bother to be here if I can be somewhere else where i can truly feel good about myself, be proud of myself and not live my life to please these damn people around me?

 

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i felt like i am in a place of unfamiliar people. indeed, I am.

 

This is not my world. This is not the type of people i want to live with. This is not the world i want to be in.

 

I so hated the feeling!

 

 

xoxo-

Monday, September 20, 2010

Back to Old Vices?



I just came back from a week-long vacation and i was fuming to find out that DH has gone back to smoking.

For all the procedures and tests i’ve gone through, i was thinking he was just wasting our time with all the fertility tests. I have been N01NiceCigarinto a lot of discomforts and stress thinking if the procedures i would go into are painful or not, and here he is – smoking his way to fertility. 

It’s just so frustrating that I have faced my challenges, fought my fears – while he on the other hand only underwent a simple, no sweat semen analysis and he even have the guts to go back to smoking.

I know it is not easy to break a bad habit, but once you have invested a lot of time, suffered all the withdrawal symptoms and totally overcome it, you have to think twice about even picking up one stick.

I don’t know where all these fertility tests are going. I am just plainly mad and angry. . . and frustrated. This is not anymore my battle, it’s his!T02ThrowTable

Friday, September 10, 2010

what now?

 

got chills yesterday.

 

now i got headache and i felt nauseous.

 

got cramping on my tummy as well.

 

had diarrhea last night too.

 

a merry mixed up of everything i guess.

 

will be off for a long vacation tomorrow and i do not know if all these will subside before i will be screaming on that zipline adventure i plan to do early next week.

 

on the other hand, i wish all these means having a baby. and i would love to forgo all those adventure trips and mountain climbing if i am.

 

crossing my fingers.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

6 Ways to Get Pregnant Fast According to Old Folks

 

Indeed, I have been hearing a lot of suggestions from old folks back home, from the elders in our neighborhood, and from most of the ‘older' people whom I have shared my infertility journey.

 

If I could list all of them, I would surely find a good list on ways to get pregnant fast. They sure have some golden ideas that you will never learn from doctors, or probably doctors won’t tell you.

 

Here are some of them.

 

1. Put a pillow underneath your buttocks after sex. 

 

The law of gravity works in this theory that elevating your buttocks after sex will help the sperm swim easily towards the egg. You can also raise your leg and rest it on a wall while your buttocks are supported by a pillow. They say, this should last about 30 minutes to an hour.

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2. Choose your position.

 

A good choice of sexual position, they say, is one of the ways to get pregnant fast. Positions that allow the sperm to travel the shortest in reaching the egg is ideal. The missionary position, or the man-on-top, is said to be the best position that qualifies this requirement. The spoon, or doggie style can also be considered.

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3. Oysters as sperm boosters.

 

It may just be a mere coincidence that oysters may look like the female genitalia but this seafood is rich in zinc that helps boost the production of the sperm, thus men with sperm count issues can help themselves by getting a good amount of oyster in their diet.

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4. Add more Moringa oleifera in your diet.

 

This vegetable tree is packed with tons of nutrients and is probably why old folks would pressure you to get Moringa Oleifera soup to add to your meal. This can also be taken in powdered and capsule form.

 

5. Massaging your abdomen to set the right placement of your uterus.

 

I do not know if doctors would even recommend this procedure but old folks swear that it helps make conception easy. Of course, it is not something too harsh but just gentle massaging that allows your uterus to be ‘in place’. Of course, an expert on this procedure is necessary.

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6. Dancing the fertility dance.

 

In a religious society like ours, a lot of old folks would recommend you to join the ‘dance for fertility’ as a prayer ritual to ask for a child. This fertility rite lasts for 3 days where people dance to celebrate the feast of St. Paschal, St. Clare and Our Lady of Salambao, which are said to be patron saints of fertility, wealth and abundance. This fertility rite has been around since the 18th century, and for sure, a lot of couples may have been blessed with a child after joining this rites, as people often recommend it.

 

I for one haven’t tried a few of these fast tracks to pregnancy but i don’t find any harm in trying these ways to get pregnant fast. Of course, the more you believe that you can conceive fast, the more it can become a reality, so i would just have to keep the fire burning. 

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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

A Break from OB Visits

 

It’s been awhile now since I last visited my OB-Gyne after I had my HSSG at the fertility clinic and the results showed that my fallopian tubes are patent. Now I have been wondering what else is there to check.

 

I ovulated with the fertility pills. I do not have PCOS or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I have patent fallopian tubes. My uterus is anteverted and I have regular menstruation. I haven’t even missed a period except once when I was so stressed with work. That was the time I thought I was pregnant.

 

Now, i am on my third month on Clomiphene Citrate. I took the brand Clomene as I haven’t found the Serophene brand that I took during the first month. I don’t know if different brands have different effects, but I am hoping I am ovulating just like the first two cycles I had.

 

For the next weeks, I am planning to have a long vacation off from work and off from stress as well. By the time I’ll come back from vacation, I would also be expecting results if fertilization has indeed occurred. Really hoping for that big fat positive when I came back.

 

For now, i just have to enjoy my vacation, get off my thoughts about trying to conceive and de-stress. Hopefully, this will also help the fertilization process.

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I am thinking a little zip line adventure, ATV riding or gliding would probably be a great break from stress. Will find out!

 

 

 

 

ciao!



Friday, August 13, 2010

Third Cycle, Day 1

Ok, today is Day 1 of my third cycle under Clomiphene Citrate.

 

That means I got the aunt flow today. But of course I am not surprised. As i mentioned in the last post, I had my HSSG last cycle and I was under Flagystatin – so there was no really planned and timed contact.

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So now I have to count again.

Day 1.

Day 2 to Day 6 – Clomiphene Citrate

Day 9 to Day 21 – Fertile period

Day 22 to Day 26- waiting for results.

 

I really hope i would not do all this counting again next month. Enough counting the 26 days. i want to count 9 months.

 

But anyway, i will make DH undergo another semen analysis and probably scrotal ultrasound as per advice of his urologist. Then we have to go back to my OB-Gyne.

 

i went to my orthodontist today to let her check my braces and made some adjustments with it but told me to come back next month to check the results. It means i have to ply the city from doctors to doctors next month.

 

Good luck to me then! 

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Thursday, August 12, 2010

2 Days Delayed

 

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Second day.

 

and no sign of my period.

 

but i’m not yet going for the pregnancy test (PT). I heard Clomiphene citrate can lengthen your cycle.  

 

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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Ovulation Calculator – What Does it Say?

 

I have saved a bookmark of an online ovulation calculator to help me keep track of my cycle. You can check out this ovulation calculator if you want to try it.

 

Based on my last two cycles, the ovulation calculator tells me that my next cycle would start today. August 12. Last month, it came a day early, but now, I do not have my period yet. Although I am not expecting any good results for this month because I had my HSSG on Day 2 and I was also on Flagystatin for a week during my fertile period, so contact was not that very well planned.

 

So now, all i have to do is wait and see. My breasts have been tender, but I felt them before when i was on Clomiphene citrate, so there’s really no big deal about that. I also had cramps starting, so these may just all be PMS.

 

But i will be waiting. If the ovulation calculator is just delayed for just a few days, i’ll just wait and see.

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Friday, July 23, 2010

My HSSG Results

 

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I am so glad to see ‘patent fallopian tubes’ in my HSSG results. Of course, that means both my fallopian tubes are not blocked and there’s actually no problem with blockage.

 

Now We have to dig deeper what’s causing the problem. I don’t have polycystic ovaries syndrome or PCOS, which is a common condition of infertile women. I don’t have problems with my tubes. I don’t know what seems to be the problem.

 

. . . and i am really hoping there’ll be no more tests as intrusive as this one.

 

hmmm, yeah, we have a little problem with the sperm count and morphology but DH’s urologist said it can be remedied and there is a chance. It may be lesser compared with those having hundred millions of sperms but it still can work out.

 

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Are my Fallopian Tubes Blocked? - The HSSG Process


Yes, there are cases that infertility is caused by blocked fallopian tubes – of course, that will hinder the egg from meeting the sperm.

Fertilization 101.

So my OB had to schedule me for an HSSG or otherwise known as hysterosalpingosonography (huh! that was long) to check if my fallopian tubes are not blocked.

For some, an HSG is done instead of an HSSG. This might be a little confusing though. HSG or hysterosalpingography uses an x-ray to check if the fallopian tubes are patent or unblocked. In HSSG, an ultrasound is used. The latter was the procedure i underwent.

So i had to take a 500mg pain reliever thirty minutes to 1 hour before the procedure. I did not take chances with a lower dosage (of course, i am allergic to pain). But i was a little surprised that the process was not really painful.

The doctor even asked me if i have experienced dysmenorrhea, as the pain can be likened to such, she said. But I for one has yet to imagine how painful can a dysmenorrhea be. I am lucky not to experience it and very thankful as well.

Although i did feel a little discomfort when the tubes ( a catheter i supposed) was inserted into my cervix and into my uterus. I felt more discomfort after the saline solution was injected into the tubes. I am thankful the doctor was so nice, she always asks if i felt pain and if i am alright.

The process began with a TVS ultrasound, then the doc and her assistant inserted a tube (catheter) into my cervix into the uterus and a fluid is injected into the catheter – which can probably tell if the fallopian tubes are blocked.

After four or five tries, i am done.

In a few minutes, i will be getting the results and i was not even feeling anything.


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Thursday, July 22, 2010

HSSG Today

Today is Day 8 of my second cycle and i am scheduled for HSSG at 10:30.



I got mixed feelings about the procedure, as the nurses said i have to take pain reliever an hour before the HSSG procedure.


what’s adding to my anxiety is that, i am feeling under the weather for the past days. I even had a painful stomach yesterday, i thought i could faint in the bathroom. Constipation is still a bother although i had BM yesterday. but my stomach is still bloated.


it seems that i have slept the entire day yesterday just to forget about what i’m feeling.


what’s worst, am going to the clinic alone for the HSSG. i asked hubby to accompany me and he just said 10:30 is not a good time to get out of the office.


so what can i do? i felt bad. yesterday, he went to a friend’s house to fix a webcam, and he was even able to go there at noon. can’t he just log out early? or work under time perhaps?


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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

What’s in It for The Second Cycle

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I am now in the middle of my second cycle with Clomiphene citrate. I was not actually minding my medications because i was so drawn towards finding the relief for my constipation.

 

I have kept my promise of walking on the treadmill every morning, but I am only up to 15 minutes. I’d probably make the 30 minutes gradual. My sweat is just all over my face even at the start of the 10th minute.

 

I almost forgot to take my fertility pills the other day. I even took it before bedtime.

 

What’s in it for the next cycle? I dunno. I sort of lost interest.. i don’t know.

 

Hope all these will over soon.  bored-anim-bored-waiting-girl-smiley-emoticon-000275-large

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Another Round, Another Fight

So, i had my disappointments. But i did not lose hope.

 

Now i have to start all over again for my next round of Clomiphene citrate. The thing i dreaded most is constipation when my progesterone rises during the luteal phase (that phase after ovulation and before the menstruation schedule). Oh, what a burden.

 

But of course, i have to do something about it. I’d probably start making lifestyle changes before this dreaded condition haunts me again.

 

With that, i’m planning to:

 

1. walk 30 minutes every morning on the treadmill;

2. get into a leafy vegetable-and-fruit-diet.

3. cut down on meat and bread.

 

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Thursday, July 15, 2010

How it Feels to be Disappointed

First round of Clomiphene citrate and it failed.

 

Just got my period today. A day early than the 26-day cycle I have been counting.

 

Now i know how it feels to be disappointed. Of course, with all the help from fertility pills, i felt a tinge of hope that somehow, this is the proper time to have that baby.

 

But of course, i know i do not have to treat the pill as my miracle drug. Everything has to be in its proper places to be able to make the fertilization happen.

 

As the first cycle comes to an end, it only left me constipated and bothered by this bad cramping all over my abdomen. Off again to my next cycle. but i have to do the HSSG this time.

 

I’d probably tell DH that he has to undergo another semen analysis so we can check if we got the condition perfect for fertilization.

 

Although i don’t really feel i lost hope, but this constipation and bloating is making me feel annoyed. At least, i can take a tablet for you now.

 

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12 Days Past Ovulation (12 DPO)

I was not too attentive with my symptoms today as i was bothered big time with constipation. I was able to poo yesterday but I was thinking it was not enough. So i had to take 2 sachets of Fibrosine before breakfast and drank lots and lots of water.

 

I also felt a little pain on my right side while walking. I don’t know if this has something to do with what’s going on inside my uterus or should i say, my stomach.

 

My breasts are still a little tender although my nipples are less sensitive than the first time i noticed the soreness.

 

I don’t know if i want to feel excited or anxious. Today is 12 days past ovulation and for some women trying to conceive, they are eager to take their pregnancy test even as early as 9 days past ovulation.

 

Not me. I probably don’t want to disappoint myself. So i choose to wait for the menstruation or Day 14 probably, to find out.

 

This two-week wait definitely is stressful and tensed. Although i have been feeling constipated, my nipples are sore, my breasts tender and i frequently go the bathroom to pee – i still do not disregard the idea that this might be due to Clomiphene citrate or the increase in my progesterone level.

 

But of course, the bigger part of me wants to see that big fat positive two days from now.

 

 

 

 

XOXO

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

OMG, Blood!

Indeed. When i went to the bathroom tonight, i saw a very tiny speck of what seems to be a brownish red thing and i started to suspect it’s blood.

 

I had the same observation yesterday but i checked it out and i thought it was just the thick cervical mucus (CM). So i just shrugged it off.

 

Today, i finally found blood on the tissue paper. i wiped once. then twice . . . and still found the same watery red thing on the tissue paper.

 

i was tensed. i was really thinking of implantation bleeding and i really really pray this is not just my period. I calculated my 26-day cycle and i am suppose to have my next cycle on July 17. Today is two days before the start of my next cycle.

 

Now I know why trying to conceive is stressful. Especially when you are taking fertility pills and all.

 

Really really pray this is it.

 

080508-221635-958007Lord, graciously hear us. 

 

 

 

XOXO

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Third OB visit

- had follicular monitoring through TVS

- big follicle ruptured, which means i was able to ovulate with clomiphene citrate. Hope the sperm was able to do its job.

 

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The ultrasound result showing the ruptured follicle in the right ovary.

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Indeed, a number of follicles developed after the first cycle of Clomiphene citrate

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Largest follicle ruptured at Day 21, stimulated cycle

 

So now, i was at least happy to know that the follicle was able to rupture. Today ends my ovulation period as well and I am really, really hoping fertilization can happen anytime soon.

 

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I also noticed i had constipation and was wondering what causes such. Folic acid does not cause constipation. In fact, it cures constipation. less than 1% of clomiphene users reports constipation as a side effect, but i don’t know if one can still get side effects 2 weeks after the intake of the fertility pill.

 

i’ve read somewhere that high levels of progesterone can cause constipation as it makes your digestion sluggish. 

 

my breasts are also tender and my nipples are sore as well.

 

Whether this is a very early sign of pregnancy or just a mere side effect of clomiphene, that i do not know. but i’m praying for the former though.

 

 

 

Hopeful. iwish-i-wish-wish-hope-smiley-emoticon-000268-medium

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

A Visit to the Urologist

As per advice of my OB-Gyne, we went to see the urologist today to ask for an opinion on DH’s semen analysis.

This has been our third time to visit the urologist’s clinic as he was not around during our first appointment and the second time, we just felt lazy to go there.

So this time, DH finally got a break from work and we went there at almost 6 pm. Glad to find out that we can still be accommodated. We were last on the list.




“Do you smoke?”, “Do you drink?”. . . goes the questions. DH smoked at times but when i told him that he’s got to stop smoking as soon as we start the fertility treatment, he agreed however.

He had chills and canker sores for a week – probably his withdrawal symptoms.

The urologist went on for another round of questioning.

“Have you impregnated a woman before?”

I smiled. Of course, the doc sought permission to ask the question. DH answered ‘No’.

After a few physical check-up on DH, he suggested ultrasound for him as well as another semen analysis after 3 months intake of a vitamin that can help with the sperm count.

In conclusion, he said DH can still have a baby. Although the chances may not be as high as those with hundreds of millions of sperm, but he still have a chance.

We went home with smiles in our faces. 300px-Smiley.svg
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